Excruciating Pain: A Personal Battle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came quick stabs, like lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned frequently that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition typically begin with intense pain around a single eye that lasts up to three hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more often affected. Attacks typically begin with sudden, excruciating pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, like many triggers, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical records propose bizarre remedies for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery which supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Mary Perez
Mary Perez

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